4:35 AM

Can you believe it? It's 4:30 in the morning and I'm wide awake. I haven't slept a wink. I'm not even a tad tired. And - I didn't even have any coffee today. Wow! Could I finally be under stimulated. To the point where, I'm no longer wishing some sweet sweet shut eye?

Let's not lie to myself. Mommy-hood still is deprives. I wish I was asleep right now. I also wish I knew exactly why I am awake at this very second.

I guess I just am. 

I started a brand spanking new brew of coffee, ate a avocoda-salmon bowl, and still my eyes lids don't feel the least bit heavy.

Maybe it's the prospect of things I need to do.

Maybe I'm just not as busy as I am used to, or once was.

Since quitting my job and resting - wrists, vacation, and all - I think that I may have gloriously somehow learned to pace myself, my energy. That somehow, I really have recuperated??

And now, due to these new things, this new recuperation -  I'm up. Back to the vicious cycle of all that is. 

I have no clue what to expect today now. What I'm gonna do, if I'm gonna conk out on public transpo, or just fall asleep altogether and pretend like daylight is night...

John has a dr,'s appt. and if I need to do one thing today - it should be taking him to his check up.

Hope it works out.

I forgot his Immunization Records in my mom's car, so I hope she can be a doll and stop by, on her way to work. I'm a do-do for waiting to figure that one out last minute.

 

Nothing too new here though really.

Some prospects and plans but nothing's been finalized.

I'm still struggling to stay veg. 

which I have failed at these last 3 days due to my father-in-law cooking dinner for all of us.

Meatloaf. :( 

Nothing more parallel to the anti-christ of a vegetarian diet than a sizzling, fatty, loaf of ground hamburger meat.

hotttt.

Anywho, I best be getting my first cup of joe.

I can smell the heavenly brews circulating in the kitchen - calling my name.

Imsomnia is now officially extended...

Mira